Facebook

I knew there was a reason I hadn't created a facebook profile, but a few months ago I gave into pressure seeing how friends and family are on there, I can't give you the link as it's me not Jessica ;)

I logged on today to find 50 requests waiting for me, things such as zombies, vampires, werewolves etc. God I had this social networking crap! (blogging excluded)

In other news, I still haven't heard from Jack since the drunken bedroom incident, not that I'm complaining.

Thinking

Now that I've written down what happened with Jack on Emma's birthday it's got me slightly annoyed at how quickly he got me naked and tried to get me into bed while I was drunk.
He hasn't attempted to contact me since but I'm not sure if that means he might be feeling guilty or if he's following some kind of guy dating rules by not calling for a while.

So at moment he's falling out of favour.

Events of the past weeks

Well since it's been a couple of weeks since my last post I thought I would put it all into one post.
Ok so first of all it was my best friends birthday, I haven't mentioned her in this blog but she's my confidant and is the only person who knows me who knows about this blog, I'll call her Emma.

So Emma knows all about Jack, although she's never met him (well that's what we both thought), going out for a drink with her and some friends Emma's cousin turns up, it turns out that her cousin is the one and only Jack! after some frantic hand signals from across the room she finally figures that out, it also suddenly dawns on me that Jack thinks we're dating but everyone else present (well the one's I know since we're in a night club) knows he's not exactly my type, shit!

I stay out of sight while he gets introduced to the crowd, Emma guides him around to where I'm hiding and being the little minx she is she introduces us to each other as Jack and Jessica before quickly apologising and using our real names.

He doesn't let on that he knows me until Emma leaves us, I asked why he didn't say anything and his reply was that he wasn't sure if I had told anyone about him, I said there was nothing to tell, he's just another guy I know. The conversation went on for a bit when I asked if there had been between us why he thought I wouldn't have told anyone, he leans in and whispers in my ear "because you haven't told me your a lesbian yet", the bastard knew, all this time and he knew, apparently my mother told him at the wedding before he was introduced to me, damn the interfering cow, I don't know why but I was more angry with her than him.

I tried not to speak with him much to at least give him the impression I was mad with him. When the club shut a small group of us moved onto another club which was open for several more hours, people started to disperse as the evening went on until there was 5 of our group left, Emma, Jack, myself and another guy and girl who were busy with each other. Emma and me went onto the dance floor and were happily dancing together until we started getting swamped by loads of guys wanting us to make out on the dance floor, we kissed with a little tongue hoping it would shut them up but it only exasperated the situation and it was down to Jack to rescue us, our group usually has a few large guys who look after the girls in situations like that but they weren't with us tonight.



After a short break at the bar I returned to the bar but this time taking Jack and leaving Emma at the bar since she didn't want a repeat what just happened. I remember thinking that he was going to kiss me just like he had done on all the other occasions he had kissed me without asking. I'm not sure if I was just thinking about it too much or if I was simply drunk but when he moved closer to me I kissed him first, well he kissed back and yes ok I admit this guy has an affect on me!



The 5 of us ended up back at Emma's place, luckily her husband had gone to see his parents for the weekend and had taken their son with him. There were a few more drinks to be had before we decided to get some sleep, Emma had said I could sleep in her son's room. I used the bathroom and went into his room to find Jack half dressed, I was just about to throw him out when he kissed me and all sense of me wanting him to leave left instead, a zipper and two shoulder straps later and my dress was on the floor, a moment later and he'd unclasped my bra, a short while after that and my knickers were around my ankles, he dropped his trousers and at that moment I heard the other couple going hard at it in the next room and I burst out laughing, I think it bruised his ego until he realised what I was laughing at. It was enough for me to realise that I didn't want to continue, he was a bit pissed until I said that if sex was all he wanted he could f* off right then, he calmed down and suggested we get some sleep, I put my knickers back on and climbed into the single bed with him and fell asleep with his arm around me. He was still asleep when I left in the morning.

Yes I'm confused with the situation!



Ok next!

Next on the agenda was Sophie's birthday, what did she want? shopping and a sleep over with her friends, I agreed to her having 5 friends staying over, so 8 turn up and of course you can't turn them away when their mothers are thanking your for having their little angel for the night so they and their husbands can get upto whatever it is they haven't gotten upto since the little angel was born. Taking 9 6/7 year old's shopping without re-enforcements is not a good idea, a minute into the toy shop and I lost all of them, of course me looking for them only made it more fun for them to hide from me, so I waited at the tills and they eventually they all turned up with their chosen items which muggins here was paying for! The rest of the evening was relatively trouble free.



Ok next!

Next was Children in Need and our company had agreed for us all to wear fancy dress for the day. Luckily we have a costume department and me being someone of importance (yeah right) I also managed to get some time in hair and makeup, my chosen costume was Gothic Vampiress with all the trimmings (a little bit like the picture) and we raised loads of money in the process which was the main point.

Thinking back

Doesn't time fly, I hadn't realised it had been so long since my last post.

Things have been rather quiet so far for me, I dressed up as a witch to go trick or treating and I attended a company social event where nothing worth mentioning happened.

I haven't seen Jack in the last two weeks although we've been texting back and forth, he's still as flirtatious as ever and I'm, well I'm not sure what at the moment.

Although the situation has made me think back to high school. I had a crush on a boy in the primary school and we started seeing each other when we moved up to high school, I say seeing and not dating since we didn't actually see each other outside of school, but we spent some time kissing in various areas of the school where no one would find you.
I'd already started having strange feeling about other girls and no more so than while getting changed for gym practice, but that's another story.
He moved away at the end of the 9th year and being the age we were we didn't think to keep in touch, it wasn't until after he left that I decided to pursue these feelings I had been getting about girls.
It makes me wonder what would have happened if he had stayed around and I had been content with that relationship.