Return to Sanity

I think I'm returning to sanity, if there is such thing. I'm actually able to think about other things besides Rebecca, which means I'm not day dreaming while at work.

Not sure what else to write on the subject at the moment but I'm sure I will think of something later.

Horny as hell

I think the reason I've been touche for the past week or so is because I'm gagging for it, yes I know being a woman I'm not supposed to admit that but I am.

I just spoke to her (I'll call her Rebecca for future purpose), she was tired due to a hard days work (even on a Sunday!) but she wanted to speak to me before she went to sleep, I actually love talking to her when she's tired as her voice is so soft and gentle, the only problem is it makes me wish I was there cuddling up with her.

Another reason for my high state of arousal is perhaps because I've not slept with Rebecca yet, we've kissed many times and she's not as shy as she used to be with me but we just ain't got down and dirty yet, which I'm hoping to get to do when I see her, which feels like and eternity away.

I've also hatched a plan so that I can have my wicked way with her, to the straight girls out there (if there are any left) don't worry I won't take her anywhere she doesn't want to go. I've bought her a little necklace, nothing fancy just a small token, well actually the idea is to put it round her neck and caress it (well the skin around it anyway) since it will fall nicely in her cleavage it should give me a good indication of what to expect.

Sitting on the fence

So things have calmed down since my last post, she's gone away on a business trip so we won't see each other for four weeks, five in total since she left a week ago.

We've been texting and she's looking forward to seeing me when she gets back, which makes me think she does have feelings for me but is slightly scared of admitting that just yet, I think it's down to the whole coming out thing since she's not exactly a self confessed lesbian.

I'm going insane!

What does 'Good friends, maybe something more' actually mean because it's driving me nuts, one minute we're on for what I think will be something good then we're just friends arrgh.!

I think she's still having issues with her feelings for me which is the main problem!

Weekend away

Well I'm back from my girlie weekend away, it didn't quite go according to my master plan.

First the hotel upgraded us to a bigger room which had three beds instead of the cheaper room which only had one, how can you complain about that one! so no accidental fondling.

All in all it was a good trip as far as trips go, we did plenty of shopping and went for a dip in the hotel's indoor pool, I sampled the local cuisine but didn't take to it so settled on a MacD's.

Traveling was nice and easy, we all decided to only take hand luggage so not to get suck waiting for baggage, although that brings it's own problems as there are limitations on what you can take in your carry-on.

Looking to arrange another trip before the summer and as before the booking is left to me, think I'll go for the cheapest room to make sure we get just the one bed *wink wink*