Another Dream

An interesting dream I had a couple of days ago, unlike the shark dream this one was quite pleasant if not short. I've not been able to determine if there is a meaning.

I'm walking through a carpark with a girl, she looks like a girl I had a one night fling with at the beginning of the year. We're going somewhere and we're taking her car since I didn't bring mine, although I can see mine parked in the distance, also the carpark is very similar to my work's carpark.

We drive out the gate onto a main road which I don't recognise and it's now raining quite heavy. We pull over so she can explain where we're going and she seems quite excited, as she leans towards me I kiss her, and this is pretty much where the dream ends except for one fact. I can remember the kiss so vividly I could almost swear it was real, I remember the feeling of her tongue, the taste of her lipstick and the smell of her hair its so amazing.

I usually only remember sights and sounds from dreams but this kiss was so real it actually makes me smile just thinking about it. Now I did kiss her several months ago so it could just be the remembering the sensation from that but it seemed different, fresh somehow.

Hearing voices

Don't worry we're fine, yeah what she said.

No I'm not going mad but I'm also too young for a midlife crisis.

I feel stuck in life, the past couple years have been stagnant for me with no real accomplishments to speak off and I think that's part of the problem, I'm not moving forward.

I had considered moving to a new city and starting a fresh, Sophie is still at the age where I think we could move without much of a problem. But since my recent spat with mum she's cut off my allowance leaving me to pay my own bills which means I can't afford to move. I know you all have to pay your own way so I shouldn't moan

My mother moved us when I was 14 and in the middle of high school, I never really settled in and as a result put less effort into my school work. I would say I've never really forgiven her for the trouble that put me through but when I look back I did burn many bridges so staying would have created another set of problems anyway.

No one in my family know I feel this way and quite frankly I don't think I could talk to any of them about it. I did try once a few years ago when I had another problem and the support wasn't all that helpful.

I've been pigging out more recently and have noticed my clothes are getting tight around the waist, but according to my doctor I'm still under weight so I'm not all that worried about that just yet.

So here's another negative post about my life, I think that's why I haven't posted so much lately as I don't want to drag anyone along with me.