Last post of 2008

Reading that title you could either think of me as an optimist or pessimist seeing how there is almost 24 hours left in the year.

So I do apologise for not posting anything for the past 5 months but I've not really been in the mood. Ok to be more honest I wasn't sure what to write about, I'm still not sure but I think I'll just keep typing and see what comes out. It is the end of the year and perhaps the title of this post was enough to bring me out a little.

So what's been happening I hear you scream at the monitor, well I may have gotten older but I'm still 2 years away from being 30.

Well my sister is still off on her year out traveling around the world, she sends photos when she gets chance and seems like she's really enjoying herself.

Since Laura is currently not a viable sitter this means my mother has made an executive decision and Sophie has had to move in with her. Not only that but now it's just me living here she's also decided not to subsidised the rent, I know I shouldn't moan about that seeing how everyone else has to pay their own way but it was nice not to be flat broke at the end of each month. It's funny but she has come out and said if I start dating men she would consider the money issue, the bitch! not that I've been getting any lately from either gender.

I must admit that my darker outlook on life lately has made me say and do things I've come to regret, maybe that's too hard, I think I could have made better choices.

I do tell people that I never regret things but truth be told there are many decisions in my life I regret and although they don't keep me awake at night they can be cause for a distraction.

I still think that something has to change for me to move forward but not sure what, I don't think a new job would have any affect since when I'm in work I tend to get on with stuff without this side of my personality getting in the way. Moving is out of the question because of Sophie, I know that if I moved further away I would end up seeing her less than I do now.

What is a girl to do, suggestions welcome.